idklehhh

2011-10-02T04:32:00.001+08:00

hahahahah fucking loser kena kick out of school useless motherfucker.

sian.

2011-08-14T22:41:00.001+08:00

face the fact, you suck.

2011-08-03T02:51:00.001+08:00

嘴巴上彼此嫌麻煩
眼神中關懷那麼滿
沒說愛卻早已認定一輩子的伴.

fuck la cb.

2011-07-29T01:14:00.001+08:00

i dont know what im doing anymore, its like i lost every sense of direction. thank god for this blog, i need to vent my frustrations.

2011-07-19T01:32:00.001+08:00

why do old songs hit me so much more than those new songs does?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y9v7LIffROc&feature=channel_video_title

sigh.

2011-06-30T00:56:00.001+08:00

守住妳的承諾太傻　只怪自己被愛迷惑
說過的話已不重要　可是我從不曾忘掉

2011-05-25T23:56:00.002+08:00

at the point where i started feeling better, you had to come back into my life and screw it up. why cant you just leave it as it is? dont you fucking know how much you have already hurt me, and why the fuck would i be so fucking stupid to fall back in again, when im fucking starting to fucking recover.

you know what, i dont even know why i care so fucking much. just leave me alone, im sick and tired of seeing your tweets about blah blah blah when I WAS GOING THROUGH THE SAME SHIT BEFORE. THIS IS JUST FUCKING KARMA BACK IN YOUR FACE. FUCK YOU.

2011-05-14T03:45:00.004+08:00

开始我以为爱本来会很容易
所以没有经过允许就把你放心底
直到后来有一天你和他走在一起
我才发现原来爱情不是真心就可以 
我感动天感动地怎么感动不了你
明明知道没有结局却还死心塌地
我感动天感动地怎么感动不了你
总相信爱情会有奇迹都是我骗自己


i thought i was fucking over you. fuck this fuck this.
i need to smoke.
fuck you.

2011-04-17T01:59:00.000+08:00

我明白我要的爱
会把我宠坏
像一个小孩
只懂在你怀里坏
你要的爱不只是依赖
要像个大男孩
风吹又日晒
生活自由自在

2011-04-14T23:45:00.000+08:00

fuck my life

2011-03-23T05:39:00.002+08:00

does he watch your favourite movies
does he hold you when you cry
does he let you tell him all your favourite parts when you've seen it a million times
does he sing to all your music while you dance to purple rain
does he do all these things, like we used to.

2011-03-07T01:20:00.000+08:00

never trust any fucking girls again you fucking retard dont you ever let yourself hurt like this protect yourself enough of hurt enough of healing people and letting the person hurt you back enough of being mr nice guy enough of every single thing you just get bullied only ENOUGH.

2011-03-01T09:18:00.001+08:00

Listen to the song here in my heart
A melody I start but can't complete

Listen to the sound from deep within
It's only beginning to find release

Oh the time has come for my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside and turned
Into your own, all 'cause you won't listen

[Chorus]
Listen
I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried
To say what's on my mind
You should have known oh
Now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what
You've made of me
I followed the voice, you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own
You should have listened
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/b/beyonce/listen.html ]
There was someone here inside
Someone I thought had died
So long ago
Oh I'm screaming out
And my dreams will be heard
They will not be pushed aside or worse
Into your own
All 'cause you won't listen

[Chorus]
Listen
I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried
To say what's on my mind
You should have known oh
Now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what
You've made of me
I followed the voice, you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own

I don't know where I belong
But I'll be moving on
If you don't, if you won't

Listen to the song here in my heart
A melody I start, but I will complete

OH now I am done believing you
You don't know not what I am feeling
I'm more than what you've made of me
I followed the voice you think you gave to me

But now I got to find my own
My Own

2011-02-28T23:24:00.001+08:00

you fucking liar.

2011-02-28T00:15:00.000+08:00

isnt this whole world about pretence? i see it everywhere hahahahha screw this eyes of mine.

2011-02-25T04:31:00.003+08:00

im not invisible you know, i can see your twitter and his. its like, im a replacement seriously im feeling like that right now urgh screw this feeling can someone please tell me what the hell is wrong? i feel like a replacement next to him, and your not helping urgh fuck this probably bad mood shut up rant rant rant bye.

2011-02-23T13:57:00.001+08:00

i get the feeling, your just playing with both of us. what do you want me to do?

2011-02-22T04:09:00.001+08:00

“Every once in a while people step up, they rise above themselves. Sometimes they surprise you, and sometimes they fall short. Life is funny sometimes, it can push pretty hard, but if you look close enough you find hope in the words of children, in the bars of a song and in the eyes of someone you love. And if you’re lucky, and if you’re the luckiest person on this entire planet, the person you love decides to love you back.”

2011-02-20T22:56:00.001+08:00

i just cant do anything right cant i? even a simple apology to solve problems = treating people like shit hahahha. okay i get it i am really useless i hate this fucked up shit life i have GOD GIVE ME A GOD DAMN BREAK.

FUCK AND STOP CRYING YOU FUCKING USELESS BITCH WHAT KINDA MAN ARE YOU.

2011-01-25T23:58:00.000+08:00

stop this pain in my heart, and stop this tears from flowing down please. someone i beg you.

2011-01-25T23:48:00.002+08:00

I've always been honest with you. i told you every single feelings.

i love you, but i cant stand it any longer. i may be patient, but all along you had given me reason to trust in. I hold back my feelings in front of you, because i rather be in a delusion that you would actually be closer to me than when i confessed to you. i rather just be in a world of my own.

hah, memories? i always wanted things to end perfectly, but i guess life sucks so therefore there will rarely be a happy ending.

i always waited for you to explain everything to me, because i want to see your view. all i asked this time, was to see what you see. but i never did, because you never even explained.

It hurts to see all this shit, and i dont want for you to miss me before you contact me. i wanted to be the one always there for you, every single moment of your life.

and so, im going away. the only reason i stayed so long is you. and with you starting to be like this i dont know what can i do but just leave.

i love ranting on this dead-ass blog, at least it does make me feel better. not.

2011-01-04T20:06:00.002+08:00

i made a wrong move, i shouldnt have thrown away the ring.

but it hurts more when i see you move forward, ignoring me and straightaway taking other person's hands.

and not even putting me in your mind before you go, i finally understood who i was to you all along now.

a toy.

2010-12-20T06:41:00.002+08:00

我把自己关起来只留下一个阳台
每当天黑推开城门对着夜幕发呆
看着往事一幕一幕
再次演出你我的爱
我把电视机打开听着别人的对白
也许那些故事可以给我一个交代
你要的爱我学不来
眼睁睁看情变坏
认真真看情感慨
不能给你未来我还你现在
安静结束也是另一种对待
当眼泪留下来
伤已悄在
分开也是另一种明白
我给你最后的疼爱是手放开
不要一张双人床中间隔着一片海
感情的污点就留给时间慢慢漂白
把爱收进胸前左边口袋
最后的疼爱是手放开
不想用言语拉扯所以选择不责怪
感情就像候车月台
有人走有人来
我的心是一个车牌写着等待
不能给你未来我还你现在
安静结束也是另一种对待
当眼泪留下来
伤已悄在
分开也是另一种明白
我给你最后的疼爱是手放开
不要一张双人床中间隔着一片海
感情的污点就留给时间慢慢漂白
把爱收进胸前左边口袋
最后的疼爱是手放开
不想用言语拉扯所以选择不责怪
感情就像候车月台
有人走有人来
我的心是一个车牌写着等待
最后的疼爱是手放开
不要一张双人床中间隔着一片海
感情的污点就留给时间慢慢漂白
把爱收进胸前左边口袋
最后的疼爱是手放开
不想用言语拉扯所以选择不责怪
感情就像候车月台
有人走有人来
我的心是一个车牌写着等待
我把收音机打开听着别人的失败
哽咽的声音彷佛诉说着相同悲哀
你的依赖还在胸怀
我无法轻易推开
我无法随便走开
感情中专心的人容易被伤害

2010-12-01T11:34:00.000+08:00

cause something's changed
you've been acting so strange
and its taking its toll on me.

2010-11-29T23:46:00.002+08:00

im useless.

im never gonna be someone that your gonna be proud of.

2010-11-18T00:31:00.001+08:00

Its not what i didnt feel, its what i didnt show.

2010-11-15T02:21:00.000+08:00

容忍的人其实并不笨
只是宁可对自己残忍

2010-11-11T12:43:00.000+08:00

人群里面那个我把幸福遗落
那曾经走过的路口我停了你却走
我想捂住我的耳朵听不见你说
爱就在此刻松手分手放手
我猜不透不猜透
和你背对背的走
原来怪我没有
没有爱情的天分你才要走

我想要学会自我催眠

痛觉会少一些

潜意识作祟想着想到失眠

我躺在没有你的房间

寂寞更加明显

我渐渐的自我催眠

却回不到从前
等着红灯那个我还会向前走
也许那幸福的执着在下一个路口
专属铃声我还留着却静静沉默
在我们之间爱了放了散了
我会不说不想说
怕说了也没有用
现在我的幽默
只是掩饰着心痛我的难过
聪明再多一些
我走在没有你的世界
却走不到永远
慢慢闭上双眼

2010-11-01T02:10:00.002+08:00

To really love a woman
To understand her
You gotta know her deep inside
Hear every thought
See every dream
And give her wings when she wants to fly

And when you find yourself
Lying helpless in her arms
You know you really love a woman

When you love a woman
You tell her that she's really wanted
When you love a woman
You tell her that she's the one
She needs somebody
To tell her that it's gonna last forever
So tell me have you ever really
Really really ever loved a woman

hey, i really really love you.

2010-10-26T22:44:00.001+08:00

everyone around me finding their love.

why do i feel we are getting further?

2010-10-17T03:21:00.001+08:00

your the reason for every part of me (:

2010-10-06T02:34:00.001+08:00

Oh her eyes, her eyes
Make the stars look like they're not shining
Her hair, her hair
Falls perfectly without her trying

She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Yeah I know, I know
When I compliment her
She wont believe me
And its so, its so
Sad to think she don't see what I see

But every time she asks me do I look okay
I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

Her nails, her nails
I could kiss them all day if she'd let me
Her laugh, her laugh
She hates but I think its so sexy

She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Oh you know, you know, you know
Id never ask you to change
If perfect is what you're searching for
Then just stay the same

So don't even bother asking
If you look okay
You know I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

The way you are
The way you are
Girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

2010-09-29T05:46:00.001+08:00

Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are

I had to find you
Tell you I need you
Tell you I've set you apart

Tell me your secrets
And ask me your questions
Oh, let's go back to the start

Running in circles
Coming up tails
Heads on the science apart

Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard

Oh take me back to the start

I was just guessing
At numbers and figures
Pulling the puzzles apart

Questions of science
Science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart

Oh tell me you love me
Come back and haunt me
Oh and I rush to the start

Running in circles
Chasing our tails
Coming back as we are

Nobody said it was easy
Oh, it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard

I’m going back to the start

2010-09-28T02:22:00.001+08:00

mia boy.

2010-09-25T11:02:00.000+08:00

sometimes, when you think that theres no way life can screw you up, think again.

life screwed me up, and im a fucking crybaby bye.

2010-09-22T03:15:00.001+08:00

Wondering the streets, in a world underneath it all
Nothing seems to be, nothing tastes as sweet
As what I can't have
Like you and the way that you're twisting your hair
round your finger
Tonight I'm not afraid to tell you
What I feel about you.

I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
and cannon ball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
For you I will

Forgive me if I st-stutter
From all of the clutter in my head
Cuz I could fall asleep in those eyes
Like a water bed
Do I seem familiar, I've crossed you in hallways
a thousand times, no more camouflage
I want to be exposed, and not be afraid to fall.

I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
And cannon ball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
You always want what you can't have
But I've got to try
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
For you I will
For you I will
For you

If I could dim the lights in the mall
And create a mood I would
Shout out your name so it echoes in every room
I would

That's what I'd do,
That's what I'd do
That's what I'd do
To get through to you

I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
And cannon ball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
You always want what you can't have
But I've got to try
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
For you I will
For you I will
For you I will

2010-09-21T05:01:00.001+08:00

Cuz I could fall asleep in those eyes, like a water bed.

2010-09-17T03:23:00.002+08:00

i got a lot of thoughts so i should do this quick so that i wont forget it (:

1st : i just sorted out my thinking, and the trip back on the company van got me thinking alot. yes i have a fucked up attitude this few days, and i dont know why. but i promise it will go away.
2nd : talking to my colleagues really got me thinking why i even want to go for you. I love your personality, and that you are seriously one of a kind and your irreplaceable in my heart. all i want for you is to be happy, and that i want you to become a better person, and not to regret your life when you grow older.
3rd: i dont want to be like those kind of useless man beside you, i want to be the one that you trust the most, and those kind you can depend on. I know you can become a good girl, and you have it inside you! I want to bring it out, like cmon, you studying? ^^ thats a big change aye!
4th: life is too short to regret, and that mistakes are just obstacles in your life to help you become a better person. you can either sink, or you can use them as stepping stones to help you learn and not repeat it! im trying all my best to become the perfect guy for you, so please please be patient with me.
5th: i dont have the self-confidence, endurance, patience and every single good virtue you expect. but i am willing to learn and for that, please try to pardon me and guide me. i know you aint that good yourself ( HAHA DONT COME AND GET ME FOR THIS) but yeah, your still better than me! all that really matters is that i really love you and i hope you would give me the chance!
6th: there are alot of obstacles between us, but i know love can help us overcome it. so if you give me a chance, please please let me be the one beside you (:
7th: im going to turn back to the guy you know! the mature, calm, caring and funny( i hope), just give me a little bit more time i guess im like a girl sometimes (screw my mood swings urgh ) ):
8th: and lastly, im sorry for being such a whore yesterday. and thank you for being so patient with me and willing to tell me and let me learn. iloveyou :D

wow i managed to pent down all my thoughts for one night. i hope you see this when im not around so i wont be that shy and have a damn red face for the whole day HAHAHA

this post is gonna be special. i hope this post will just be a reminder of what is life (:

i guess all you need to do is to be optimistic, and remind me never to be a useless man like what my colleagues were saying (:

KK BYE THIS IS A DAMN LONG POST HAHAH

2010-09-16T10:18:00.002+08:00

i really need to go fix my level control for my anger seriously fuck it why the hell am i losing my temper so easily this days urgh.

AND WHY THE FUCK DOES MY CIGARETTES FINISH SO FUCKING QUICKLY URGH CHAOCHEEBYE.

k time to control.

carmenleejiamin, im sorry.

2010-09-12T16:15:00.002+08:00

what am i supposed to do when the best of me was always you
what am i supposed to say when im all choked up that your okay
im falling to pieces.

2010-09-12T03:21:00.001+08:00

好想好想
好想好想
好想好想
好想好想
和你在一起

:)

2010-09-08T03:23:00.000+08:00

我写了这首歌是一首简单歌
不复杂也不难唱的那一种歌
这不是那种只剩下那钢琴的歌
也不是那种不能只是朋友的歌
这不是那种两个人的故事写在一本小说
那小说里有谁在花田里犯的错
这就是一首写给你听的一个

love song 一直想写一首
love song 你给了我一首
love song 那dj会播放
这也许会效彷如果我只想写出一首
love song 一直想写一首
love song 你给了我一首
love song 你就像那夏天的凉风
吹过我的面孔真想飞
在我心底你就是我的想说爱你

我写了这首歌是一首简单歌
不复杂也不难唱的那一种歌
这不是那种童话里会遇见的歌
也不是那种真真切切爱我的歌
这不是那种两个人的故事写在一本小说
那小说里有谁在陪在看流星在降落
这就是一首写给你听的一个

love song 一直想写一首
love song 你给了我一首
love song 那dj会播放
这也许会效彷如果我只想写出一首
love song 一直想写一首
love song 你给了我一首
love song 你就像那夏天的凉风
吹过我的面孔真想飞
在我心底你就是我的想说爱你

如果你是一幅画你会是最珍贵的一幅画
如果那画家是梵高的画
有何贵人前来又献花哥哥向你请教
梵高他说你们都该回家
如果你是melody 就是最动听
所有的人都会跟着一起唱
就算在夜晚你的心才能
让我忘了月亮代表我的 love song

love song 那dj会播放
这也许会效彷如果我只想写出一首
love song 一直想写一首
love song 你给了我一首
love song 你就像那夏天的凉风
吹过我的面孔真想飞
在我心底你就是我的

2010-09-06T05:02:00.002+08:00

after talking, i realised how much we went past together, and yet its nothing as compared to the future.

fuck it? or hold on?

i really dont know, all i know is im tired and i want happiness.

2010-09-01T00:25:00.002+08:00

知足 ((:

2010-08-31T23:00:00.001+08:00

i look at all your old blog posts and your twitter, and i really want to live in the past. fuck it why am i in such a bad mood urgh fuck fuck fuck.

dont fuck with me k exams if you cock up im gonna burn you tmrw i swear

2010-08-28T02:08:00.003+08:00

Come on.

Everybody’s looking for love. Oh. Oh.
Ain’t that the reason you’re at this club. Oh. Oh.
You ain’t gonna find it dancing with him. No. Oh.
I got a better solution for you girl. Oh. Oh.

Just leave with me now. Say the word and we’ll go.
I’ll be your teacher. I’ll show you the ropes.
You’ll see a side of love you’ve never known.
I can see it going down, going down.

In my head, I see you all over me.
In my head, you fulfill my fantasy.
You’ll be screaming out.
In my head, it’s going down.
In my head, it’s going down.
In my head. Yeah. In my head. Oh yeah.

Some dudes know all the right things to say.
When it comes down to it, it’s all just game.
Instead of talking let me demonstrate. Yeah.
Get down to business and skip foreplay.

Just leave with me now. Say the word and we’ll go.
I’ll be your teacher. I’ll show you the ropes.
You’ll see a side of love you’ve never known.
I can see it going down, going down.

In my head, I see you all over me.
In my head, you fulfill my fantasy.
You’ll be screaming out.
In my head, it’s going down.
In my head, it’s going down.
In my head.

Break it down. Ay-oh. Come on. Ay-oh. Ay-oh.
You singing to me baby in my head right now. Ay-oh. Ay-oh. Come on.
She’ll be screaming out when it all goes down.

Just leave with me now, Say the word and we’ll go. We can go.
I’ll be your teacher. I’ll show you the rodes.

You’ll see a side of love you’ve never known.
I can see it going down, going down.

In my head, I see you all over me.
In my head, you fulfill my fantasy.
You’ll be screaming out.
In my head, it’s going down.
In my head, it’s going down.

In my head, I see you all over me.
In my head, you fulfill my fantasy.
You’ll be screaming out.
In my head, it’s going down.
In my head, it’s going down.
In my head.

on a totally unrelated note, i feel like learning how to play hey soul sister on guitar HAHA. screw the live band at my workplace, fucking influenced.

oh and i really cant stand one day without seeing you, i just want to be with you every single moment of my life. i love youuuuu :D

2010-08-23T02:07:00.002+08:00

我的爱人不理我可是这世界怎么说
两个人不能够在一起一定是男的那个有错
我甚么都愿意做有什么委屈也不选择反驳
宁愿找男生借个肩膀难听的话更多
一直保持沉默会认为你懦弱
怎么做就怎么错
好女人不好过坏男人有错
好男人不好做是不是整个社会的错
女朋友离开我我还要生活
难道我跟她比赛难过
原谅我刚喝过讲得太刻薄

年纪不能比她小好奇的人会有话说
但是钱要赚的比她多否则人家会嫌你沦落
有义务陪女朋友可是又没有权利放弃工作
要运气事业有点收获没时间说承诺
一直保持沉默会认为你懦弱
怎么做就怎么错
好女人不好过坏男人有错
好男人不好做是不是整个社会的错
女朋友离开我我还要生活
难道我跟她比赛难过
活该我不敢寂寞

好女人不好过坏男人有错
好男人不好做是不是整个社会的错
女朋友离开我我还要生活
难道我跟她比赛难过
原谅我刚喝过讲得太刻薄

谁都没有错我喝了太多

2010-08-22T02:39:00.000+08:00

One less bell to answer
One less egg to fry
One less man to pick up after
I should be happy
But all I do is cry

(Cry, cry, no more laughter)
Oh, I should be happy
(Oh, why did she go)
I only know that since he left my life's so empty

Though I try to forget it just can't be done
Each time the doorbell rings I still run
I don't know how in the world
To stop thinking of him
(I should be happy)
'Cause I still love him so
I end each day the way I start out
Crying my heart out

One less bell to answer
One less egg to fry
One less man to pick up after
No more laughter
No more love
Since he went away (Since he went away)
Since he went away...

Oooh, A chair is still a chair
Even when there's no one sitting there
Well, I'm not meant to live alone
Turn this house into a home
When I climb the stair and turn the key
Oh, please be there
Still in love with me...

(One less bell to answer)
Each time the doorbell rings, I still run
(One less egg to fry)
One less man (one less man) to pick up after
No more laughter, no more love
Since he went away (Since he went away)
Since he went away
All I do is cry

2010-08-21T01:28:00.001+08:00

Stars shining bright above you
Night breezes seem to whisper "I love you"
Birds singing in the sycamore tree
Dream a little dream of me
Say "Night-ie night" and kiss me
Just hold me tight and tell me you'll miss me
While I'm alone and blue as can be
Dream a little dream of me
Stars fading but I linger on, dear
Still craving your kiss
I'm longing to linger till dawn, dear
Just saying this
Sweet dreams till sunbeams find you
Sweet dreams that leave all worries behind you
But in your dreams whatever they be
Dream a little dream of me

2010-08-15T14:21:00.000+08:00

tonight i've fallen and i cant get up
i need your loving hands to come and pick me up
and every night i miss you i can just look up
and know the stars are holding you, holding you, holding you tonight

2010-08-15T13:52:00.001+08:00

i love the way you ask me to do stuff for you, the way you call me, every single thing.

i just want to live in the past again.

rewind please.

2010-08-15T04:13:00.001+08:00

ill miss you.

2010-08-13T16:13:00.001+08:00

我以为要是唱的用心良苦，
你总会对我多点在乎。
我以为虽然爱情已成往事，
千言万语说出来可以互相安抚。
期待你感动，
真实的我们难相处。
写词的让我，
唱出你要的幸福。
谁曾经感动，
分手的关头才懂得。
离开排行榜更铭心刻骨。
我已经相信有些人我永远不必等，
所以我明白在灯火阑珊处为什么会哭。
你不会相信，
嫁给我明天有多幸福。
只想你明白，
我心甘情愿爱爱爱爱到要吐。
那是醉生梦死才能熬成的苦，
爱如潮水，
我忘了我是谁，
至少还有你哭。
我想唱一首歌给我们祝福，
唱完了我会一個人住。
我愿意试着了解从此以后。
拥挤的房间一个人的心有多孤独。
让我断了气铁了心爱的过火，
一回头就找到出路。
让我成为了无情的k歌之王。
麦克风都让我征服，
想不到你若无其事的说：
“这样滥情，何苦？”
我想来一个吻別作为结束，
想不到你只说我不许哭，
不该我领悟！

2010-08-13T16:13:00.000+08:00

2010-08-13T15:56:00.001+08:00

when will it ever be about me?

im sick of making other people happy and neglecting my own. its time for me to be selfish, im sick of letting other people ride on my head.

2010-08-12T23:13:00.001+08:00

talk to me, i wanna know everything. i dont like secrets.

2010-08-09T14:41:00.001+08:00

against all odds.

2010-08-05T00:45:00.000+08:00

很想说有你是幸福的
很想说我的心是你的

i love you silly girl. your the one i will always, and forever cherish. its just the fucking circumstances tmrw just fuck them

2010-08-02T07:51:00.001+08:00

all i want is to hear that reassuring voice of yours, telling me i can do it.

thats all i need.

2010-08-02T01:07:00.002+08:00

i see the finish line, but im slowing down instead of accelerating.

i need to bring out the last bit of fire in me urgh cmon slap yourself awake she needs you.

2010-08-02T00:51:00.002+08:00

you bring out the best in me.

i promise you, ill never lose this chance to make you happy (:

2010-07-30T01:27:00.002+08:00

its pains me to see you get hurt physically,

and yet i let you hurt yourself emotionally.

fuck this world and fuck myself for being so fucking useless.

i so fucking love this fucking WONDERFUL life im having now. cmon cmon i cant seem to sink any lower give me more hopes please?

2010-07-29T03:22:00.000+08:00

It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss
Now I’m falling asleep
And she’s calling a cab
While he’s having a smoke
And she’s taking a drag
Now they’re going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And it’s all in my head
But she’s touching his—chest
Now, he takes off her dress
Now, let me go

I just can’t look its killing me
And taking control
Jealousy, turning saints into the sea
Swimming through sick lullabies
Choking on your alibis
But it’s just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
‘Cause I’m Mr Brightside

2010-07-29T01:49:00.003+08:00

看今夜的流星划过了天际笑我的心
我无法再冷静请你要倾听你是我的唯一
我不愿去相信我们之间隔著海洋的距离
我的爱已融化在空气里

i still cant accept the fact. fuck it i just shouldnt be up at this time, its really killing me.

2010-07-29T00:47:00.002+08:00

FUCK MYSELF. JUST FUCK MYSELF AND MY BRAINS STOP THINKING FUCK YOU.

2010-07-28T23:40:00.000+08:00

stop it, right now. your just fucking around with yourself. urgh.

kill me please

2010-07-28T01:45:00.001+08:00

i love you.

2010-07-27T23:57:00.001+08:00

Your lipstick stains on the front lobe of my left side brains
I knew I wouldn't forget you, and so I went and let you blow my mind
Your sweet moon beam, the smell of you in every single dream I dream
I knew when we collided, you're the one I have decided who's one of my kind

Hey soul sister, ain't that Mr. Mister on the radio, stereo, the way you move ain't fair, you know!
Hey soul sister, I don't want to miss a single thing you do...tonight
Hey, hey,hey

Just in time, I'm so glad you have a one-track mind like me
You gave my life direction, a game show love connection we can't deny
I'm so obsessed, my heart is bound to beat right out my untrimmed chest
I believe in you, like a virgin, you're Madonna, and I'm always gonna wanna blow your mind

Hey soul sister, ain't that Mr. Mister on the radio, stereo, the way you move ain't fair, you know!
Hey soul sister, I don't want to miss a single thing you do...tonight

The way you can cut a rug, watching you's the only drug I need
You're so gangsta, I'm so thug, you're the only one I'm dreaming of
You see, I can be myself now finally, in fact there's nothing I can't be
I want the world to see you be with me

Hey soul sister, ain't that Mr. Mister on the radio, stereo, the way you move ain't fair, you know!
Hey soul sister, I don't want to miss a single thing you do tonight,
Hey soul sister, I don't want to miss a single thing you do...tonight
Hey, hey,hey

Hey, hey,hey

Tonight

2010-07-27T23:47:00.002+08:00

this is the best time of my life. i got everything i want ( well except for my studies and that very special thing ) .

but no complains, im contented with what i have :D

"Laugh as much as you breathe and love as long as you live."

my best memories are the ones with you, just seeing the smile and laughter on your face (:

2010-07-26T23:54:00.001+08:00

i wanna be your listening ear, i wanna be the one giving you advice on everything.

let me in?

2010-07-26T01:46:00.003+08:00

somebody kick some sense into me, i have to face reality.

FUCK IT FUCK IT WAKE UP YOU GOD DAMN SON OF A BITCH URGH.

kk rants over bye.

2010-07-25T03:22:00.000+08:00

你们要快乐要天长地久
你们没有错爱是自由
走出这扇门后至少我还有辽阔
你们要快乐要紧紧牵手
你们不幸福我会难过
成全最爱的人不是为了看着她寂寞

2010-07-25T03:18:00.002+08:00

你常常说我很完美
没人能取代我给的一切
我就以为我努力更完美
我们就会永远
完美并不美我们多虚伪
你让我的好变成一种罪
完美并不美当你爱了谁
我的完美也只是不完美

后来你说我太完美
值得更好的陪在我身边
你不是我你怎么能体会
你有多么珍贵
完美并不美我们多虚伪
你让我的好变成一种罪
完美并不美当你爱了谁
我的完美也只是不完美

我希望你幸福尽管你并不爱我

完美并不美我们多虚伪
你让我的好变成一种罪
完美并不美当你爱了谁
我的完美成了罪

完美并不美我们多虚伪
你让我的好变成一种罪
完美并不美当你爱了谁
我的完美也只是不完美

2010-07-25T02:54:00.003+08:00

well i hope your happy, all i want to see, is that smile on your face forever. i cant guarantee i can be a good best friend, but i will try i promise. i dont know when you will see this, but all i have to tell you, is that ill be there for you. As long as your happy, im happy. good luck with him (:

2010-07-20T23:41:00.003+08:00

your msg and call out of a sudden only makes me miss you more.

i need to make up my mind urgh

2010-07-20T14:37:00.002+08:00

Waiting for your call, I'm sick, call I'm angry
Call I'm desperate for your voice
Listening to the song we used to sing
In the car, do you remember
Butterfly, Early Summer
It's playing on repeat, Just like when we would meet
(Like when we would meet)

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

Stripped and pollished, I am new, I am fresh
I am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh
Cause every breath that you will take.
While you are sitting next to me
Will bring life into my deepest hopes, What's your fantasy?
(What's yours? What's yours, What is yours)

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

And I'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
X4
( I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

Cause
I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight
( I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

i dont know where you have been, but i miss you.

2010-07-20T00:42:00.000+08:00

party life? thats what i wanted all along.

all i want now is to be with the one i love, my bros, and my family. why cant i just have all of this together sigh.

time management skills? i really need you back please.

2010-07-18T14:31:00.003+08:00

写一封没有地址的信
想寄到你的心里
告诉你渐渐变淡的爱
你是否曾经注意

过去的美丽日子已经不再
我还在傻傻地找寻
也许你想要说但说不出口
我知道你想说

分手吧我们分手吧
不要再骗我说你还爱着我
你我的梦彼此的不同
就算是当作一时糊涂爱错
我们分手吧

写一封没有地址的信
想寄到你的心里
告诉你渐渐变淡的爱
你是否曾经注意

过去的美丽日子已经不再
我还在傻傻地找寻
也许你想要说但说不出口
我知道你想说

分手吧我们分手吧
不要再骗我说你还爱着我
你我的梦彼此的不同
就算是当作一时糊涂爱错

分手吧我们分手吧
不要再骗我说你还爱着我
你我的梦彼此的不同
就算是当作一时糊涂爱错
我们分手吧
嘿分手吧

也许你想要说但说不出口
我知道你想说

分手吧我们分手吧
不要再骗我说你还爱着我
你我的梦彼此的不同
就算是当作一时糊涂爱错

分手吧我们分手吧
不要再骗我说你还爱着我
你我的梦彼此的不同
就算是当作一时糊涂爱错
我们分手吧
我们分手吧

2010-07-15T00:11:00.001+08:00

happy happy :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

2010-07-14T21:43:00.001+08:00

ego boy like a cool ah!

2010-07-11T13:06:00.002+08:00

我的心想唱首歌给你听
歌词是如此的甜蜜
可是我害羞我没有勇气
对你说一句我爱你
为什么你还是不言不语
难道你不懂我的心
不管你用什么方式表明
我会对你说我愿意
千言万语里 只有一句话能 表达我的心
千言万语 只有一句话就
能够让我们相偎相依
我爱你 你是我的茱丽叶 我愿意变成你的梁山伯
幸福的每一天 浪漫的每一夜
把爱 永远 不放开 
I LOVE YOU
我爱你 你是我的罗蜜欧 我愿意变成你的祝英台
幸福的每一天 浪漫的每一夜
美丽的爱情祝福著未来

为什么你还是不言不语 
难道是你不懂我的心
不管你用什么方式表明
我会对你说我愿意
千言万语里 只有一句话能 表达我的心
千言万语 只有一句话就
能够让我们相偎相依
我爱你 你是我的茱丽叶 我愿意变成你的梁山伯
幸福的每一天 浪漫的每一夜
把爱 永远 不放开
I LOVE YOU
我爱你 你是我的罗蜜欧 我愿意变成你的祝英台
幸福的每一天 浪漫的每一夜
美丽的爱情祝福着未来

我爱你 你是我的茱丽叶 我愿意变成你的梁山伯
幸福的每一天 浪漫的每一夜
把爱
永远
不放开
I LOVE YOU
我爱你 你是我的罗蜜欧 我愿意变成你的祝英台
幸福的每一天 
浪漫的每一夜
美丽的爱情祝福著未来

2010-07-09T17:11:00.002+08:00

Days swiftly come and go,
I'm dreaming of her
She's seeing other guys
Emotions a-stir
The sun is gone
The nights are long
And I am left while the tears fall

2010-07-09T17:00:00.002+08:00

to think im so insignificant to you, after all that i've done.

move along, move along like i know you do.

2010-07-07T23:48:00.000+08:00

Our favorite place we used to go
The warm embrace that no one knows
The loving look that's left your eyes
That's why this comes as no, as no surprise

If I could see the future and how this plays out
I bet it's better than where we are now
But after going through this, it's easier to see the reason why

2010-07-05T00:46:00.002+08:00

HAHAH CARMEN LEE JIA MIN. DAMN PIG FACE I TELL YOU :D

2010-07-01T11:17:00.002+08:00

我懂了她
她不让眼泪落下
所以让爱结束在最美刹那
她的眼里进了沙
她算了吧够了吧
不要再苦苦挣扎
我懂了她
不要我为她牵挂
她说天空很大要自由飞翔
没有结果的爱情
她放了吧走了吧
不想要彼此受伤
她那么傻

2010-07-01T11:08:00.001+08:00

你想要的
我却不能够给你我全部
我能给的
却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束
不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路

2010-07-01T00:13:00.001+08:00

suddenly feel tired.

old life back, please? ):

2010-06-30T01:55:00.001+08:00

Prison gates won't open up for me
On these hands and knees I'm crawlin'
Oh, I reach for you
Well I'm terrified of these four walls
These iron bars can't hold my soul in
All I need is you
Come please I'm callin'
And oh I scream for you
Hurry I'm fallin', I'm fallin'

Show me what it's like
To be the last one standing
And teach me wrong from right
And I'll show you what I can be
Say it for me
Say it to me
And I'll leave this life behind me
Say it if it's worth saving me

Heaven's gates won't open up for me
With these broken wings I'm fallin'
And all I see is you
These city walls ain't got no love for me
I'm on the ledge of the eighteenth story
And oh I scream for you
Come please I'm callin'
And all I need from you
Hurry I'm fallin', I'm fallin'

Show me what it's like
To be the last one standing
And teach me wrong from right
And I'll show you what I can be
Say it for me
Say it to me
And I'll leave this life behind me
Say it if it's worth saving me
Hurry I'm fallin'

All I need is you
Come please I'm callin'
And oh, I scream for you
Hurry I'm fallin', I'm fallin', I'm fallin'

Show me what it's like
To be the last one standing
And teach me wrong from right
And I'll show you what I can be
Say it for me
Say it to me
And I'll leave this life behind me
Say it if it's worth saving me

Hurry I'm fallin

2010-06-30T01:52:00.002+08:00

give me a sign of hope and miracle tmrw please? give me a sign for me to continue believing in myself.

2010-06-28T00:49:00.001+08:00

I believe in you and me
I'm coming to find you
If it takes me all night
Wrong until you make it
And I won't forget you
At least I'll try
And run, and run tonight
Everything will be alright
Everything will be alright
Everything will be alright
Everything will be alright

I was out shopping for a doll
To say the least, I thought I've seen them all
But then you took me by surprise
I'm dreaming bout those dreamy eyes
I never knew, I never knew
So take your suitcase, cause I don't mind
And baby doll, I meant it ever time
You don't need to compromise
I'm dreaming bout those dreamy eyes
I never knew, I never knew
But it's alright...

Everything will be alright
Everything will be alright
Everything will be alright
Everything will be alright

2010-06-28T00:43:00.000+08:00

treasuring every single moment with you, no matter how short or insignificant it may be to you.

<3

2010-06-24T01:45:00.000+08:00

And you play it coy, but its kinda cute.
Ah, when you smile at me you know exactly what to do
Baby dont pretend, that you dont know its true
Cause you can see it when i look at you.

<3

2010-06-24T00:25:00.000+08:00

Cause every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure.

2010-06-23T13:17:00.001+08:00

HEYHEY !
151095 :D
my birthday !
PRESENT x:

hi im bored.
TECKBAO HERE :D
okays he's singing crazy ! x:
HEY! carmen here !
BYE THIS BORED !

2010-06-22T23:49:00.000+08:00

Impossible Is Nothing (: i will do it!

2010-06-22T23:46:00.000+08:00

what day is it
and in what month
this clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up
and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time

cause it's you and me and all of the people
with nothing to do
nothing to lose
and it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you

all of the things that I want to say
just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping inwards
you got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here

cause it's you and me and all of the people
with nothing to do
nothing to prove
and it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you

there's something about you now
I can't quite figure out
everything she does is beautiful
everything she does is right

you and me and all of the people
with nothing to do
nothing to lose
and it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you

you and me and all of the people
with nothing to do
nothing to prove
and it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you

what day is it
and in what month
this clock never seemed so alive

2010-06-22T02:02:00.001+08:00

please girl dont scare me again like this! ):

2010-06-21T07:28:00.000+08:00

Caught here in a fiery blaze, won't lose my will to stay.

I tri-ie-ied to drive all through the night,
The heat stroke ridden weather, the barren empty sights.
No oasis here to see, the sand is singing deathless words to me.

Can't you help me as I'm startin' to burn (all alone).
Too many doses and I'm starting to get an attraction.
My confidence is leaving me on my own (all alone).
No one can save me and you know I don't want the attention.

As I-I-I adjust to my new sights the rarely tired lights will take me to new heights.
My hand is on the trigger I'm ready to ignite.
Tomorrow might not make it but everything's all right.
Mental fiction follows me; show me what it's like to be set free.

Can't you help me as I'm startin' to burn (all alone).
Too many doses and I'm starting to get an attraction.
My confidence is leaving me on my own (all alone).
No one can save me and you know I don't want the attention.

I'm sorry you're not here I've been sane too long my vision's so unclear.
Now take a trip with me but don't be surprised when things aren't what they seem.

Caught here in a fiery blaze, won't lose my will to stay.
These eyes won't see the same, after I flip today.

Sometimes I don't know why we'd rather live than die,
We look up towards the sky for answers to our lives.
We may get some solutions but most just pass us by,
Don't want your absolution cause I can't make it right.
I'll make a beast out of myself, gets rid of all the pain of being a man.

Can't you help me as I'm startin' to burn (all alone).
Too many doses and I'm starting to get an attraction.
My confidence is leaving me on my own (all alone).
No one can save me and you know I don't want the attention.

I'm sorry you're not here I've been sane too long my vision's so unclear.
Now take a trip with me but don't be surprised when things aren't what they seem.

I've known it from the start
All these good ideas will tear your brain apart.
Scared but you, you follow me
I'm too weird to live but much too rare to die.

2010-06-21T01:23:00.000+08:00

i dont care whoever see this,

but ily carmenleejiamin.